me

In my young years I always had low self esteem. For reasons I can’t even explain to myself. That’s why when I met my future husband when I was 18 I settled thinking I don’t deserve anything better. He was a narcissist and every day was mentally abusing me.
2 kids and 23 years later I found courage in myself to leave him and start a new life

throughout the marriage I was suffering with severe anxiety and depression that went unnoticed to him and made him even angrier at me. Medications I was taking to battle it only made him say that I am a drug addict and pop pills to survive

my second pregnancy I stopped my antidepressants and spiraled into what I can only call being possessed by a devil that’s how bad my depression/anxiety was. I was climbing walls and found myself suicidal To no offered support from my then husband

I went back to my phych meds with doubled dose and additional medications just to feel sane Still depressed with bad anxiety I was living day to day in a fog

one day I came upon an article about ketamine

researched it very thoroughly and tried it in a oral micro dosing level. I have to say that it did help my anxiety almost immediately but something was missing. Not enough. Not all the way

IV ketamine administered by doctor. 6 sessions in a period of 2 weeks. I am a whole new person…